I joined calls after four hours of sleep.
I wasn’t balancing everything effortlessly.
I was creating space for imperfection.
Grant initially visited three evenings each week.
The visits felt awkward.
He sat holding Ivy while I washed bottles. Babyfeeding bottles
One evening, he stood.
“Give me those.”
“What?”
“The bottles.”
“You’re holding her.”
“She can sit in the bouncer.”
He washed them without fanfare, then placed them on the rack.
He stared at it.
“I was such an ass.”
I looked at him.
It was his first apology without excuses.
No work pressure, exhaustion, stress, or explanations.
“Yes,” I said.
He laughed painfully.
“I guess I deserved that.”
“I’m not trying to hurt you.”
“I know.”
He dried his hands.
“I’ve been seeing someone.”
My stomach dropped.
Grant noticed.
“A therapist.”
“Oh.”
“Not someone someone.”
I laughed despite everything.
He smiled briefly, then grew serious.
“I keep trying to explain